Some two (but probably more) years ago, I prayed for a certain door to open. I asked to be placed in a specific position of influence. Then I forgot about that specific prayer. Two weeks ago, I accepted a job because God told me to. (I liked the job description a lot, but I had a LOT of hesitations about the work hours and compensation.) After accepting the job, I realized that I had specifically prayed for God to put me inside this company. I had prayed for this level of influence. I had prayed for this. It had not arrived at my doorstep, wrapped the way I expected it to, but when I opened it, it was everything I had prayed for. It is my open door. But now, as I face the challenges of the work that needs to be done, I realize that it’s OVERWHELMING.
But I’m in! And I know, it’s just a matter of faithfulness to what I have been given, before God opens the next door. I honestly do not know if I’m doing this right. Sometimes I just want to scream at myself, “How did I get here??? But now that I’m here, what the heck am I supposed to do???”
It’s funny. It’s funny how I’ve landed on my mission field without knowing the battle plan. I feel so foolish. But then perhaps I really do know the first step that will uncover the rest of the steps.